Another month is slowly approaching, very slowly but soon the first birthday will be a marking point. The first time his birthday will be celebrated while we are together.
Maybe I should start writing a small book as a gift; “my life with a bull (Taurus)” or maybe even better a Lebanese bull. Still it is a life getting use too. Some things come easy while others require some amending from both parties. Do we really have to listen what the stars are telling us? For from where we life they are as bright as a full moon everyday. Will I like what others can read would they be at our place looking up, and not looking at the bedroom window…?

Star signs are telling us that:

Taureans are thought to be persevering, strong individuals, who can also be quite "bull-headed". They can be dogged and determined when they have a goal in mind. Taureans are also quite sensual and, often, self-indulgent "beasts".
In love and relationship, there is an earthy kind of possessiveness that may be considered jealousy by some, but there is actually quite a difference between being possessive and being jealous. Taurus natives are rarely jealous and petty. They do, however, think of the people they love as theirs--it adds to their sense of security

Sagittarians have an often blind faith in people, and in the world. Their optimism is infectious, although it can get them into trouble from time to time. These are curious people who love to learn. Their idealistic nature is hard to miss.
Although generally easygoing, Sagittarius is a fire sign. This gives natives a generally quick temper. Fortunately, they're usually as quick to forget what got them angry in the first place.
The need for escape is generally strong, and some Solar Sagittarians come across as a little irresponsible. They're generally easy to forgive, however. After all, their direct, honest approach in life is admirable.

Not really a perfect couple one might think, but where can one find such a thing, if they even exist. Be it even further from the fact that we are not in the running for the first price, that honor has passed us some weeks ago. Looking and reading about us, I wonder who started writing this… some of these facts are further from the truth than the distance between our solar system and the next. Maybe on the reading night the stars were covered by a thin layer of clouds.
When in the pale moonlight I look next to me, I see my man, the man I love and share my life with, but once and a while I feel the little urge to kick him. Not only because he is snoring. Knowing what I know, I am aware that he sometimes feels the same.
When in love we think so much is going to be so much easier, why do we not wake up and smell what ever it is? Do not get me wrong here I am not questioning why I fell in love, why I got married or even what I want from the future. Long have I learned that planning all this is aiming for disaster?

This time my feelings were more, stronger, intense, more than before, so much more. If we not risk we will never know. Yet, thinking about these feelings and the approach we took towards our being together we still have these sleepless moments on the same day we find ourselves daydreaming about beautiful days and nights, passed or ahead. Why is life so complicated? Is it because as a human we want to analyze everything? An answer is something we always want to have, why we or I can’t not with a day without an answer. I do try, only to find myself wondering in the evening.

Analyze love? What the hell for? Just to find more questions? I already have enough of them, I want a way to find a quiet spot, where thoughts are on a towel in the sun getting a tan…. And leave me to surf the waves and get a tan too. Could it be that I am waiting and wondering until I finally pass the time and hurdles my previous relationships had before breaking up. Still I can not answer this. My Christmas wish would be not to think about the past as part of my or rather our future…..
April fool….. I hope that this year I can go on without feeling one. So far I am doing ok and I hope that April 1st will pass by as the next day. This year I will be home and having my days off and just want to sleep and relax. Both of us are in need of some relax time, together. The past months have asked a lot of the both of us in different ways and different times. Since 14 of March we became an item for real and from now we are facing the legal situation together at home. Prove of this is the 36 page document we made for our next step of getting him his permanent visa.

All that I am afraid of is that he will be without work for a couple of months. Again sitting at home doing nothing. Something he is definitely not good at. To me this time is easy (his words) as I have my job and having enough to do. While working I found out that thinking of all these issues can also give me a bad day at works and a bad night sleep. But no one sees it or will notice it. Least of all the person who thinks that he is foremost the only one suffering under the changes in our lives. After our first night together I found myself waking up after a 8 hour sleep (first one in 3 months) and well rested, not waking up because of my cold feet or the emptiness in my (our) bed. Far more then I ever hoped this whole thing of getting back together kept me awake and worrying. The 1st of April can come and go this is a thing that will not turn out to be a joke; I can sleep and rest again, be it here in London or home in Holland. No longer is the house empty and quiet, to quiet to even notice that silence makes a lot of noise.

Before April comes March has to end, so lets first change our clocks to summertime and after that see what jokes and pranks April has to offer us…..

Real friends are those who, when you feel you've made a fool of yourself, don't feel you've done a permanent job.